Are you a disciple or part of the crowd?

I have been struck by the above question as I have been reading and pondering on the lives of Daniel, Hananiah, Azariah and Mishael in the book of Daniel. 

From the moment we meet these guys, as teenage boys, exiles in a foreign land, they have demonstrated dedication in being disciples of God. Despite the fact that they had experienced; the loss of their home, culture, lifestyle, family, and traditions, they kept following God. Even when the rest of those exiled with them, and the community surrounding them were doing otherwise. 

These four lads were not the only Jewish boys captured and brought to Babylon to be trained and educated in Babylonian life, there were others. There were other exiles, also in a similar life stage, with equable background, upbringing and lifestyle, yet these four young men continued to stand for the faith they had despite the fact that everything else in their life had change. These four recognised that even if everything else changed, God didn’t. 

They expressed this in the everyday decisions they had to make. In making their own decisions despite what the prevailing culture taught and demonstrated, in spite of what their peers were doing, or what was expected of them. We see this from the very start when they are faced with the array of food offered to them - the very same food that the king ate, and the same wine the king drank. I am sure most of the crowd were kind of excited by this prospect - the opportunity to see and taste foods they never dreamed of, even food that would not be allowed as part of their jewish heritage. As they were no longer in their own country though, did the rules still apply? even more poignant - did they want to follow them anyway as they were away from their religious leaders and their parents? These teenager boys could make their own decisions and exercise the freedom that this exile-life allowed even in the simple matters of what to eat, and who wouldn’t want to eat like a king?!

Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael and Azariah. They did not want to eat like kings. Well, they probably did, but they chose not to. Why? Because the Law told them that certain foods were unclean and not for eating, and in this Babylonian culture - how could you tell what was what? Which meats are acceptable and which aren’t? So these four dedicated disciples made a radical decision. They chose to avoid meat altogether, they requested to eat only vegetables and drink only water. How many teenagers do you know that would choose that kind of diet?

They did it because they wanted to honour God first. Above their own desires, the expectations and peer pressure. It could not have been easy for them. Can you imagine the taunting? The name calling, the tempting that must have gone on amongst the crowd of lads eating what they liked? 

The crowd were comfortable and content, eating as they liked, amongst their peers doing as expected.  Daniel and his friends were the odd ones out, living sacrificially, surrounded by temptation and teasing. 

Yet, is the aim of life to be comfortable? Is that the aim of yours? The crowd lead us to be satisfied with ourselves and accepting of one another. There’s comradeship, support and guidance. The same is true for the few disciples as well though. The question really is though - where are the crowd or the disciples leading us? 

Disciples lead us to God, the crowd lead us away. 

Jesus tells us the following in Matthew 7:13-14, ‘the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. *14*For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.’

If you are following the crowd, it may seem comfortable and satisfying, but do you realise that they are the many going through the wide gate to destruction? The few, the disciples, following God are searching for that narrow gate because they know that way they will find life. It is not easy, but isn’t it worth it?

Daniel, Hananiah, Azariah and Mishael sought the narrow way. They did not go along with the crowd, but searched for the narrow way - we can see that throughout the accounts in the book Daniel about how they pressed into God and away from the crowd. They stuck together in their community of believers and followers of God, even through fire, death threats and persecution. The disciples of Jesus did the same.

The 12 disciples of Jesus gave up; businesses, family, lifestyle, riches, security and comfort in order to follow him. They gave up everything in their life to get close to Jesus. They were invited to be up close and personal to God himself and they chose to do it rather than be part of the ever increasing crowd. As a result, they saw; Jesus walk in water, loaves and fishes feeding thousands, demons fleeing and many healings. They saw these things first-hand because they placed themselves in close proximity to Jesus by the everyday decisions they made. The crowd heard of these stories, but they weren’t there when Jesus calmed the storm or walked on water. They didn’t hear first-hand the conversations. The disciples did. Just like in Daniel, the few got to see God in action. 

Where do you want to be? 

Are you content and comfortable in the crowd? Or are you ready and yearning to be a disciple?

It is in the everyday decisions that we can show where we are. In; how you speak to others, who you spend time with, how you manage the school/work resources, how you deal with finances, if you just go along with everyone else just because that is what everyone else is doing. Everyday you get to show where you; in the crowd or amongst the disciples.

Whichever option you choose, there’s a cost. 

Being part of the crowd may be self-satisfying, comfortable and easier, but it leads to estrangement from God and destruction

Being a disciple will mean hardship, being in the minority, estrangement from peers, but closeness to God and life. 

So, what are you going to choose today? Are you part of the crowd or a disciple?

Are you grieving God?

Going through Genesis, we firstly see the joy and wonder of creation, and the imagination, purity and delight of God in what He has made, but soon it all goes wrong….

Why does it go wrong?

Well, pretty much because mankind want to do things their way. Adam and Eve were tempted, and then the initial mistrust in God then leads into sin, depravity and destruction as we through the synopsis of chapter 5. Then we hit chapter 6, and the sad reality; 

‘The Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every intention of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. *6*And the Lord regretted that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him to his heart.’

Genesis 6:5-6

God allowed, and still allows, humans to make up their own minds, to have opinions and choices, but what does getting our own way lead to? If we take Adam and Eve as an example, and consider the reality of our own lives, we can see that doubting God and His goodness leads to thinking we know better and not doing as He wants. This can commence the rapid descent into sin, just like it did for Adam and Eve.

Without challenging the doubt of God, and remembering who God really is did not end well for the first humans in existence, for the generations that followed them it ended up with; murder, boasting, polygamy, unhealthy relationships and further distance put between God and His own creation. The same can happen for you, in your life, for your descendants. 

What would God see if He looked at you life today? 

You have a choice. You get to decide whether you live a life faithful to God or not. 

I am really struck by the last 5 words of verse 6, that the sin on the Earth, 'grieved him to his heart.’ I want no part of grieving God, do you? 

Do you know why God grieves? Do you realise that only things that are dearly loved are dearly grieved? It is because of God’s enormous love for you that you grieve Him when you do things wrong, and lead your life on a trajectory further and further away from Him. It is not because God hates you that He grieves, but because of the depth of love He has for you - His creation, a person made in His very own image.

Take a moment to consider the immensity of God's love for you, and then reflect on the way your life is going, what direction are you taking? Are you making decisions that are moving towards or away from Him? 

Be more Mordecai

Last week we looked at the character of Haman who we meet in the book of Esther, a man who seems to be a product of his environment - consumed by his own selfish desires, just like the king, Ahasuerus. There is another man that is involved in life at Susa, and within the palace, this man is known as Mordecai, and as we shall see, he displays different characteristics to Ahasuerus and Haman.

All of these men are surrounded by the opulence available in Susa, where even the palace walls and floor sparkle with riches. Mordecai and Haman have both witnessed how this kingdom works; that selfishness and ruthlessness are an acceptable means to an end, and wealth and authority are treasured above all things.
Both men also work in and around the palace and seem yo have some kind of authority, they have the same work colleagues and the same boss. They are within the same environment, with the same culture encompassing them, and the same people surrounding them - that’s a lot of ‘sameness’! So, why are these two men so different?

They are both surrounded by the same influences yet their desires and character are very different. Haman is concerned with his own affairs, and his desire is to get as much as he can however he can. Mordecai, on the other hand, is concerned with the affairs of others - he has helped bring up Esther, encourages and advises her even as an adult, and he protects the king’s life. Unlike Haman, Mordecai’s desires are not for himself, but for the welfare of others.

Mordecai demonstrates kindness to all, even to people that do not seem to deserve it. He is an upright man in a wonky society. He has not become enticed or corrupted by his environment - how is that possible?
He has maintained a consistency of character and a contentment in his position, whatever that may be. He does not seem to have a lust for money or power. In fact, he is the first person we meet in this book that has shown some loyalty and compassion.
He maintains his loyalty to his kindred, the Jews, yet also displays loyalty to the Persian king, even to the point of saving his life (Esther 2:21-23).
Then, despite the fact that Mordecai has saved the king’s life, he gets no recognition for it. He remains relatively unnoticed and unrecognised. Have you ever felt like that? He went unnoticed even when he’d uncovered an assassination plot! Yet, what was Mordecai’s response? He did not complain, he did not become bitter or disheartened - He simply carried on with life. He went to work as normal, went around the city as normal and remained loyal, as normal.
Is that your response when you’ve been unnoticed or overlooked?
It is so easy for us to become angry, resentful and bitter especially when we put ourselves out and receive nothing in return, yet doesn’t that show a lack of contentment within ourselves? A need for approval from others, a need for recognition? Mordecai displayed an assurance in who he is rather than what he can do, simply by dong nothing different, he remained consistent and contented. Can you imagine the difference if you acted the same in similar circumstances?

Then, as we read on in Esther into chapter 3; we see that Mordecai admits his heritage - he is a Jew. He acknowledges in that admission, that there is one true God, and that He is the one he bows down to.
Then, of course, he comes up again some kind of prejudice at work as his workmates tell their boss Haman about Mordecai’s faith. His faith means there’s a limit to his actions, there’s a manner in which he lives and works that has clearly stood out to them because they’ve mentioned it - they wouldn’t bother if Mordecai did the same as them. They recognised something different about him and weren’t sure how to handle it, so they told their boss. They realised that Mordecai had limitations to his work, they realised he wasn’t going to do what was expected if it meant compromise.
That’s an easy situation for us to be in, a position of prejudice or compromise in our workplaces - what do you do in those situations? Do you go along with everyone else? Do you allow your workmates to question your motives? Do you make deliberate faith-choices even when it gets a bit scary in the workplace for you?
This was Mordecai’s situation. He’d come face to face with compromise, and he put his faith first even though it meant he would come up against some kind of prejudice. It would of been easier in the moment to just go along with what everyone else was doing, but he knew it would go against what he believes and values. It’s easy to dismiss our faith when we come under pressure or feel we have to go against the crowd at work. We often think it is easier to compromise, to prevent rocking the boat, but, as Mordecai realised, there is no point compromising your integrity - you have to live with that for the rest of your life. I know I’ve compromised before - I thought it was expected and the easier way out. However, the feelings of guilt and that I’m not a ‘good enough’ christian have plagued me. Don’t live like that. It’s ok to be more like Mordecai. It’s ok to stand out for what you believe, yes criticism will come, temptation will arise, but what will your response be? Will you compromise your integrity like Haman, or continue to be consistent and content like Mordecai?

Haman had learned to compromise his character, everyone else was doing the same and he was influenced by others and their expectations as well as his lust for greater wealth and power. He went along the majority, and he didn’t become the man who plans an extermination of a whole race overnight, it probably started with something silly like stealing a pen. The thought process can be that everyone does it, so it’s ok, it’s budgetted for, and does anyone really care or notice. Maybe, or maybe not, but what’s the cost to your integrity?

Mordecai, on the other hand, worked hard, worked well, was loyal and relatively unnoticed until he started not to compromise, not to go along with the flow. He decided to stand up, to not allow others expectations to influence his ideals of right or wrong. His faith ruled his decisions, not the culture or other people, or even concern for his own safety or employment.

Are you overwhelmed by the concerns of the crowd?
Does your faith influence your decisions and actions at work?
Is there some way you need to be more like Mordecai?

There is greater freedom in being like Mordecai, Haman’s life choices led to death - where are your choices leading you?

Dealing with the fallout

After these things, when the anger of King Ahasuerus had abated, he remembered Vashti and what she had done and what had been decreed against her. 
 Esther 2:1

The problem with responding in anger is that you often regret your decision afterwards. The king clearly regrets his, yet he knows there’s no going back. Even if the king had wanted to return to his relationship with Vashti, and was able to overcome the new laws and his own pride, would Vashti have accepted?

Highly-charged emotional reactions, whether made in excitement or anger, effect more than our own lives, they effect relationships and possibly the choices we have in the future. It’s not only that, but everyone touched by our decisions has to bear the consequences and you can never truly go back to how things were before. Once words are spoken they cannot be unsaid and actions taken cannot be undone. That’s what Ahasuerus was finding out. It takes but a moment to break a relationship and it can take years to restore one, maybe even a lifetime.

Even if you are forgiven and never discuss the event again, the pain and memory still exist and trust has been damaged, sadly there’s no rewind button in life where you can just redo the scene again.

In this situation with Ahasuerus and Vashti, things are too far gone to be repaired. She has been banished from his presence, so even if they wanted to, they cannot get back together and work things out. It is sad isn’t it. There are ways to avoid this happening for yourself, ways to avoid the loneliness and the fallout, is there a change you need to make today? Is there a relationship in your life that needs restoration? Is there someone you need to forgive? And if you’re not sure how to get started, pray.