Days of Remembrance

Do you have special days of remembrance?

The Jews, in Esther, created a new day of remembrance. They decide to set aside the day, every year, to recall the wondrous deliverance that God had brought about for them. A day to celebrate, give gifts and remember the poor. A day to remember that they had been delivered from death and given a new opportunity for life.

The Jews deliberately made an effort from this time forth to celebrate their deliverance from annihilation. Mordecai and Esther even established this holiday through a written letter of encouragement to all the Jews officially dedicating this day as one of celebration known as Purim. This day is an annual recollection, it is still a celebrated feast today. The nation has upheld it’s identity and continues to mark the day of deliverance.
This isn’t the Jews only day of remembrance either, they also have Passover, Hannukah and Yom Kippur to name a few, they have other important times of celebration too. The Jews are very good at celebrating. They are good at remembering, setting aside time to recall major triumphs in faith. They purposefully put dates in their diary to recall the times they have seen God at work in their lives. Do you?

Do you set aside any time in your year when you celebrate what God has done in your life? An annual commemoration? No wonder the Jews are fervent in their faith when they make time to rejoice in the breakthroughs of times past and can relate this to their own lives. They take time out of their busy lives to celebrate, not just what God has done for them personally, but they look wider and further to see what God has always been up to. God is the same yesterday, today and forever. By looking back and commemorating what God has done before brings confidence in what God is doing now and will do in the future.

Do you celebrate? Do you have significant highlights in your life, your town, your church, your nation that you should be commemorating?
How can you set aside time to recollect God’s hand in your life and the life of the church?

As a family, we have a couple of specific days that we celebrate. We set aside time to recall the days when our children became part of our family. We always make a point of doing something different and make sure we; share memories, reflect on how things have changed, discuss the highlights, the adventures, funny things that have happened and even how we ourselves have changed. I love hearing our kids stories and their memories. They are so precious. It helps me know our children better, what they value. It is an important opportunity for us all to talk to each other and acknowledge what we have and how far we have come. It does something to build relationship, and it puts extra joy in our hearts, it raises our hopes and expectations and helps us to see the work God has been doing. As a parent, it does my heart good to all get together and celebrate, as a child don’t you think it raises their hopes? Think about how God feels when we set aside to celebrate Him. As an imperfect parent I value the memories of my children, the strengths and aspirations they share, how much more so would God value the time we choose to spend commemorating Him and all the work He has been up to? Then imagine the faith it will build in yourself.

I think the Jewish customs of celebration, of marking key events in their history is important. It causes them to remember, to realign their vision, to reassess their values and regard the greatness of God, not just in theory, but in reality. How would your faith, your life change if you too set important dates of remembrance in your calendar?

 We all have stories, we all have adventures of faith, we all have breakthroughs. How can you commemorate the successes of your life?

Change of circumstances

When Mordecai learned all that had been done, Mordecai tore his clothes and put on sackcloth and ashes, and went out into the midst of the city, and he cried out with a loud and bitter cry. *2*He went up to the entrance of the king’s gate, for no one was allowed to enter the king’s gate clothed in sackcloth. *3*And in every province, wherever the king’s command and his decree reached, there was great mourning among the Jews, with fasting and weeping and lamenting, and many of them lay in sackcloth and ashes.
Esther 4:1–3.

15*Then Mordecai went out from the presence of the king in royal robes of blue and white, with a great golden crown and a robe of fine linen and purple, and the city of Susa shouted and rejoiced. *16*The Jews had light and gladness and joy and honour. *17*And in every province and in every city, wherever the king’s command and his edict reached, there was gladness and joy among the Jews, a feast and a holiday. And many from the peoples of the country declared themselves Jews, for fear of the Jews had fallen on them.
Esther 8:15–17.

Grief, lament, bitter cries, mourning, fasting, weeping, sackcloth and ashes transformed into; royal robes, golden crown, shouting, rejoicing, lightness, gladness, joy, honour, feasting, a holiday.

How does that happen?

In the matter of a few months, the lives of the Jewish people was radically transformed. They were awarded life when the previous sentence over them had been death. How did such a complete change of circumstances occur?

Well, let's consider the people concerned - the Jews. Despite the edict of death being pronounced over them, they continued to faithfully live their lives even though stricken by grief. They lived with the perpetual fear of annihilation, yet they lived nobly. They maintained their faith and their culture and they leaned on their God. Eventhough death had been pronounced over the whole people group, they continued to live responsibly and faithfully. They knew their fate was sealed, a kings edict - unrevokable. They knew the future looked like a complete wiping out of their nation. So, what was their response? They lived righteously and they fasted and prayed. They knew they had little power or influence to change the circumstances, so they did the little they could, and they handed their fate and faith over to their God. They poured out their hearts, they appealed to God for rescue, then they got on with life - what else could they do?

Even with a death sentence over their heads, the Jews; went to work, played with their kids, tidied their homes - normal everyday stuff. They got on with living eventhough their hearts were full of grief. They kept going. They did not know how this was going to all work out, they were probably were more certain of their death than deliverance, yet they continued their lives of obedience. They sought God and they carried on.

Do you do the same when you encounter a change of circumstance? when you are faced with paining suffering?

Even when your life is threatened, your situation hopeless, do you hold on to your faith? Do you realise that if all else is against you, there is One who isn’t?  Do you, as the Jews did turn to God, pray, weep and fast?

What is your first response in tragedy?

This year, I want to take a leaf out of the Jews book. Their immediate response to devastating news was to pray and fast. They dint tell all their friends about it, they didn't hide, they faced the situation with the only one who cold have any influence. They had to live in the uncertainty, in the tragedy for a while, but God delivered in a mighty way - look at the celebration, how their mourning was turned into dancing. Times of fasting turned to feasting, mourning turned into shouts of joy. The Jews did not hide from their chase in circumstances, they took into account their emotions, they got on with life and they fell on God, and God provided a greater day of celebration than if the change of circumstances had never occurred. God gave life where there was death pronounced. The Jews had to live through it first though, they demonstrated faith and obedience and trust in God. Do you do the same when your circumstances change?

who to trust?

Throughout Esther, we see the king give his trust to three people; Haman, Mordecai and Esther. Yet, how do these people gain this position and influence in the king’s life?

Haman won favour by being a good, ruthless warrior. He was a successful soldier. A king doesn't notice everyone in his army, so there must of been something about Haman that stood out. He must of achieved fantastic feats in order for the king to even know his name let alone put him into a position of honour and trust. Haman’s succession to second-in-command seems to be purely based on his strategic advances and battlefield skills. The king probably considered that as this Haman is fighting so hard for the kingdom, he must really care about it and it’s leader - a logical summation. Haman was championed and rewarded for his success, so he gained greater favour and greater trust with the king, until he became the right-hand man. Haman then had the king’s ear and could influence decisions that effected the whole kingdom. Haman, to the king seemed trustworthy, he worked and fought hard, why would he do that unless he was really invested? He grew in confidence and in favour with the king as he worked his way up, and he worked his way into the king's trust.

Then there’s Mordecai. Once overlooked, he gradually becomes noticed when his previous deeds are suddenly recalled. It is then that the true status of the man as a loyal defender of the throne is revealed. He has, for years, continued living in obscurity as a loyal scribe. All the while he has maintained his character and continued to faithfully live and work, unknown by name to the majority within the palace. Then he is propelled into centre-stage of palace life! Suddenly he is remembered from some past effort, and accelerated into the place of greatest trust with the king. The king comes to recognise that this man has demonstrated confidence, loyalty and patience in his kingdom. He has faithfully served the kingdom without a murmur of discontent, even though he’s been overlooked. The king comes to understand that this is man worthy of great trust. Haman had worked hard for years obtain it, yet Mordecai had just worked faithfully for years, unseen and unknown by many, when suddenly the king discovers the commitment of this very man to his kingdom, and his very life. The king turns from not knowing his name, to propelling Mordecai into second-in-command, the position of greatest trust in the kingdom. Mordecai was a faithful fellow, minding his own business, doing his best in life to do the right things although often overlooked, he was respected by the people (so don't be afraid if your acts of kindness or faithfulness are overlooked, the King above sees them all.)

Lastly, we consider Esther. She gained her position of trust with the king through a type of beauty contest. She had to compete with many women to satisfy the king and be noticed by him. It was then she was chosen as a wife, a position of some trust, but she had to depend on the king’s desire to see her before she could even speak to him. She had to depend on his satisfaction in her in order to win any opportunity to even approach him. We may think the value and position of a wife is one of great trust, but Esther had to use all her feminine wiles in order to even get to speak to the king. She had to prepare feasts and wine, entertainment and conversation in order to even be heard. Yet, at the time of Haman’s deception becoming revealed, she too is propelled into a position of trust, just like Mordecai. The king realises his own regard for her, his desire to protect her, and she gains trust to equally share the task of protecting the Jews alongside Mordecai. She is moved from merely existing in the palace to a place of prominence. She gains the king’s trust, because she is wise in how she approaches the king. She worked towards his interests and worked to win his favour. She put the desires of the king before she presented her own.

So, how does the king determine whom he trusts? It must be hard to decipher who is genuine when you’re royalty. Many will just ‘suck up’ because they want the power, influence and gifts of being in your favour. It must of been hard for Ahasuerus. How could he determine if Haman or Mordecai, or even Esther weren’t after their own agendas rather than his interest? He must of  been swamped with do-gooders, with those that seemed keen to please him, but many probably did it out of fear, or for their own promotion. Who is genuinely interested in the king?

I would imagine many reading this would wonder about the relevance to their own lives, as how many of you are kings and queens?!
Yet, it does challenge unto look at those we place in positions of trust in our lives. Who occupies your time and who do you speak to about the condition of your heart and circumstances? Who are you in relationship with that you can trust?Are there unseen, faithful people that you overlook? Are their Mordecai's that you barely pay attention to but are always there for you? who have stood the test of time and have shown their faithfulness time and again? Maybe this year is a time to start to show your appreciation of them. Are there any Haman's that are about their own thing that maybe you need to draw away from? Do you have any Esther's that show genuine friendship by really knowing how to put a smile on your face? Maybe this New Year is a time to reflect on your relationships. Who are those you should be appreciating? Who is worthy of your trust?

Banish the Haman's, Appreiate the Mordecais and enjoy the Esthers.

Sceptre of Acceptance

When the king held out the golden sceptre to Esther, Esther rose and stood before the king.
Esther 8:4.

The king holds out the golden sceptre to Esther again. He held it out so that Esther could regain her standing and rediscover who she was. Our King, the Lord our God also holds out the golden sceptre to you. Do you need to rediscover who you are? or recognise your ability to stand and be accepted by the King?

This Christmas, if you have found that you have lost a sense of self, feel weighed down or burdened, then reach out to the King, He has already reached out to you, all you need fo is accept the golden sceptre that is held out to you.
The king has His sceptre ready, He is prepared, He is ready to invite you into a deeper relationship with Himself, there is acceptance and forgiveness readily available to you, what are you going to do about it?

God, the King of all Kings, has already handed out His golden sceptre. He is waiting for you to accept it. God's sceptre was not some consecrated, bejewelled object, but came in the shape of a baby. God's son, Jesus was delivered to us one night in Bethlehem, born into filth, to exhausted parents in a dismal cave. He grew up amidst turmoil, in an average religious family, running away from persecution. God allowed His own son to do this, do you know why? Because He thinks you are worth it. This was God's demonstration of His wholehearted love for you. He sent His sceptre, in the form of a vulnerable baby, to live, love and grow into the man we know as Jesus. Jesus accepted all who approached him. God desires a relationship with us, that's the only reason for Jesus Christ liven and dying on Earth.

God’s stretching out of his hand with the sceptre was not merely the lifting of an object, but the gift of Himself. It required more effort, more love, more understanding than lifting a special stick. God’s offering, God’s stretching out of His hand is bigger, greater, more long-lasting than any other action of any other king, and He only did it because of YOU.

His power as a sceptre of acceptance is not a one time wonder. It is a gift to be received every day of your life. You need no appointment, no special clothing or attitude, just the willingness to bow down and recognise the mess of your own life without God in it. God has already reached out to you, are you going to reach back to Him?

If you accept the sceptre this Christmas, it will be the greatest gift you ever receive.
Jesus did come as a baby, He did live, He did die. He did it all for you, so that you could know God;s hand of acceptance stretched out to you - are you willing to take it?

Thank God for the Little Things

Don’t you just love the way God intervenes in life?!
Sometimes it’s in subtle ways, like prompting you to pray for something or talk to someone, it could be finding a bit of money or some marvel of nature, or even disturbing your sleep.

We can take these things to be small coincidences or even just random occurrences, they are quite easy to explain away. However, like we see in Esther, a series of ‘coincidences’ led to the freedom of many people. It led to recognition and promotion as well as judgement and condemnation. Sometimes the small, unusual details of our lives can be dismissed by us as unusual circumstances. I guess my encouragement to you today, is to not be so quick to write off the unusual. To instead consider - could God be in this?

Reading Esther, Chapters 5-7 we see plenty of these unusual small situations coincide in just one day. These chapters outline the events after Esther’s first banquet, all joined together by little snippets of God’s intervention in subtle ways.

First, Haman’s jealous hatred of Mordecai is kindled yet again and reaches a crescendo as he instructs for a gallows to be built so he can hang him (not for any notable reason either really). Then, the king cannot sleep, so what does he do? He orders for the big book of history to be read to him. It just so happens to be read that Mordecai, years ago, was a hero. Mordecai undermined an assassination plot and received no acclaim for it. This concerned the king, and so he spent more wakeful hours considering how to rectify this oversight. Then Haman is spotted in the grounds, so he seeks his counsel and commands Haman to give the acclaim he described to his mortal enemy Mordecai. Lots is going on there - but can you see the subtle intervention of the Holy Spirit in these circumstances? Can you see that God is involved in every part of that process?

The king was not ill, or disturbed in order to be awake, he just couldn’t sleep - why was that? And why did he decide at that very time to have the history books read and just so happen to come across the tale of Mordecai?! That seems far too many coincidences to me to be by chance and not orchestrated by God! All of these little incidents we read about in Esther clearly outline that whilst people are getting on with their normal lives, God is there, God is at work.

In the same way God is intervening in your life too.

Watch out for the little promptings of the Holy Spirit. Look out for the way God is working, even in the small things. If you are wakeful, ask God why, if you find something that was lost, praise Him for it, if you notice something beautiful and new, thank Gos for creating it. Our lives are full of small details that God has put there for us to take notice of. Even if it’s a broken nights sleep, or a chance meeting with someone. Be aware and be prepared to see God at work. Like in Esther, the small details can come together to cause a massive life change for others. So, be attuned to what God is doing. Have eyes that see the blessings around you, the small moments of joy that God gives you, the little promptings to talk or pray with someone. In the same way that God uses others to be a blessing to us, He also uses you to be a blessing to others, so keep mindful that God wants your attention everyday, and consider what can you do that God wants you to today? God may well be song you to change someone’s life as well as your own. Be prepared to see the subtle things and do the little things God asks. You may end up being the answer to someone else’s prayer.

Count your blessings

Haman recounted to them the splendour of his riches, the number of his sons, all the promotions with which the king had honoured him, and how he had advanced him above the officials and the servants of the king. 12 Then Haman said, “Even Queen Esther let no one but me come with the king to the feast she prepared. And tomorrow also I am invited by her together with the king. 13 Yet all this is worth nothing to me, so long as I see Mordecai the Jew sitting at the king’s gate.” 
Esther 5:11–13.

Oh Haman!

Haman has just had the unrivalled honour of dining with the king and queen of the known world, and he still gets grumpy!
Do you know anyone like that? Someone who has it all, but is still discontented?

Haman has mounds of riches, honour, prestige, a growing family, a job he loves, lots to boast about, yet he can still find something to moan about! Why is he dissatisfied? It seems everything is going his way - he has prestige, power and possessions, he has most things that people would dream of, yet he focuses on the one little thing that outweighs his contentment. Then that one little niggle is so magnified in his view that it destroys his enjoyment of what is pleasing. It tarnishes his perception of his perfect life.
The little niggle that blemishes Haman’s life is the lowly man that is Mordecai. Of all the aspects of life Haman could be consumed by; power, wealth, prestige, gaiety, responsibility, Haman instead focuses on the one thing that bothers him so he fails to fully enjoy or appreciate the great things of life, why? because of a man. Because of Mordecai. It doesn't really make sense does it? Why would a powerful and influential man be upstaged, angered and jealous of the seemingly poor, unimportant, Mordecai

What is it about Mordecai that bothers Haman so much? Mordecai, materially has so very little, he has little family, little power, renknown or responsibility so what is it about Mordecai that Haman hates so much?

Could it be that every time Haman comes across Mordecai, Haman realises that actually his life isn’t fulfilling, that in fact he recognises that there is something missing? Could it be that Mordecai in his seemingly uninfluenttial, insignificant position shows greater joy and contentment in his life than Haman with all his wealth, power and possessions can attain?

I think that might be it. That for Haman, Mordecai is a constant reminder that his life isn’t as perfect and fulfilling as it would appear. That all of his achievements, prowess and power, actually doesn’t increase happiness. Haman is unfulfilled, empty. Yet he sees Mordecai, who is content with the little he has and with who he is. So, whenever Haman encounters him, he sees something lacking within himself. Haman has to acknowledge the lack of contentment everytime he sees his face. Mordecai is a constant reminder of the unattainable joy and peace. Haman has moments of joy, but not the long-lasting, unshakeable type that Mordecai has.

The one thing Mordecai has is greater than the many things Haman owns, and Haman knows it.

No matter how much Haman tries, whatever promotion he gains, honour he receives, he cannot reach the internal satisfaction that Mordecai has. Haman works and works yet still it is not enough to satisfy. He is invited to feasts, triumphant in wars, yet despite the accolade, pomp and ceremony, he knows something is missing. Then, Haman happens upon righteous Mordecai, sitting contentedly at the gate and he is tormented. Seeing this man of little accord satisfied with what he has, with the work he does, even with his limited status breeds contempt. It is a lot easier to despise the one who reminds you of what you're missing rather than consider your own responsibility for inner contentment.

Mordecai is a constant reminder that Haman will never be or have enough. Mordecai has the one thing that matters and whenever he comes across him, Haman sees his inner self more clearly and he doesn’t like it. Mordecai mirrors what he’s missing - inner confidence and satisfaction.
This seems so unachievable for Haman that the feeling of resentment, anger and revenge grows the more he sees Mordecai. As he faces this contented man, he is forced to acknowledge to himself that all of the pomp and ceremony does not actually provide the internal satisfaction that he craves. The pile of possessions, the life and love of family, the responsibility of position matters nothing and never will if you don't first attain satisfaction within. Without that, life will always be lacking, as Haman found, and there will always be something that's a problem which outweighs the great things of life.

Haman, as we have read, is consumed with Mordecai being the problem. He projects his discontent onto him when, in fact, the problem lies within himself. It is far easier to blame our condition, situation and disappointments upon others. Others may well of had an influence in our circumstances, but we are actually responsible for the condition and response of our heart. No-one else can change that. Haman allowed himself to become consumed with anger and resentment because Mordecai represented all that he lacked. Whereas, if Haman had considered his own heart and what he was missing, using Mordecai as a role model, then there could of been contentment for him too.

Considering all this raises a few questions for our own lives;
Do you focus on the problems and annoyances rather than the achievements, success and positive things all around you?
Are you concerned with how much others have compared to you?
Are you one who displays peace and contentment in all circumstances?
Have you ever thought that others may be looking at you and seeing the peace and contentment you enjoy and they are jealous for it?

What does your life display? Do you live in lack or acknowledge your wealth?

Do not underestimate the great value you have and..
Count your many blessings, name them one by one,
And it will surprise you what the Lord hath done.’

Pleasing the King

when the king saw Queen Esther standing in the court, she won favour in his sight, and he held out to Esther the golden scepter that was in his hand. Then Esther approached and touched the tip of the scepter. *3*And the king said to her, “What is it, Queen Esther? What is your request? It shall be given you, even to the half of my kingdom.” *4*And Esther said, “If it please the king, let the king and Haman come today to a feast that I have prepared for the king.” *5*Then the king said, “Bring Haman quickly, so that we may do as Esther has asked.” So the king and Haman came to the feast that Esther had prepared. *6*And as they were drinking wine after the feast, the king said to Esther, “What is your wish? It shall be granted you. And what is your request? Even to the half of my kingdom, it shall be fulfilled.” *7*Then Esther answered, “My wish and my request is: *8*If I have found favour in the sight of the king, and if it please the king to grant my wish and fulfill my request, let the king and Haman come to the feast that I will prepare for them, and tomorrow I will do as the king has said.” 
Esther 5:2–8.

After the nerves and anxiety of the past few days, why doesn’t Esther just get it over with? Why doesn’t she just blurt out what she wants? What her people need?
The king has asked twice in this passage to know what Esther desires, so why doesn’t she just tell him?

Esther is, wisely, being patient. Despite the imminent danger, the worry and confusion, Esther waits. She has assessed the situation and knows that her standing with the king is not certain. She has previously witnessed how ill-timed requests have been dealt with, and she doesn’t want to end up dead, so she bides her time. She hasn't been requested by him for over a month. So, she wants to make sure she, once again, captures his heart before she makes her request. How refreshing that must of been for the king. He must of been used to people coming in, in humility and trembling, pouring out their emotions and wishes and then expecting a favourable response from him, and action that relieves their suffering. Ultimately, that is what Esther wants too, but before she makes known what she needs. she puts the king first. She knows he enjoys feast and celebrations, so, despite the enormity of her task, Esther seeks to satisfy and win over the king. Esther is not just an average citizen - she considers and concerns herself with the king - his wants and desires before her own. She wishes to please him before she asks for him to do something for her. I wonder how many people approached the king in the same way. Many would of manipulated him, cajoled him and begged him, so Esther's approach stands out. She invites the king. She asks, not for his power, but his presence. She doesn't ask for change right away, but relationship. She seeks to earn favour, not expect it even though she has every right to as a queen and as a wife.

Esther understands that she has a big ask, so she realises she needs to earn her favour with the king. She knows the far-reaching effects of her request, and knows that it isn’t right to ask for such a big thing in a moment, or even after an enjoyable party. The favour she needs must last not just for a moment or one night. So, instead of approaching the king with her wants, she first makes it clear that she is keen to satisfy him. It is clear that Esther’s desire is to ensure the king is happy and accepting of her before she states her cause. Even when the king asks a second time, Esther still waits. She wants to secure her affection in the king's hearts and ensure that the he is satisfied with her, and will act decisively when her request is made known. She wants to have insight into his heart and character once again, to gain the closeness they have previously enjoyed before making any issues known. That way she will be more certain of success, or at least, she will gain insight into hesitation from his side.

Esther has understood how to approach a king. Even when it’s risky business, even when it is dangerous and scary, Esther understands what is required. She knows that the king has all authority and power, and in order for her to gain privilege with him she needs to put him first, not herself or her wants.

Do you approach The King in the same manner?

When you pray, what is your attitude towards God? What are the things you talk about with the King of Kings?
Are you sometimes in such a rush to make your needs known that you just real of a wish-list? Or, do you realis, like Esther, that you have the priveleged position of access to a relationship with the King?

God desires the intimacy that Esther was seeking with her king. He wants to be first in your heart, not to just have your woes and worries poured out as ramble of requests. He will listen to those too, but do you know who He is when you approach Him? Is it more important to you to have your requests fulfilled or your relationship with God grown?

As you enter His presence in prayer, do you consider who He is? That He is the one with ALL authority and power? Do you enter, as Esther does, acknowledging the little she is and has, but keen to satisfy His heart? Do you intend to deepen your intimacy with God and have a relationship with Him every time you chat with Him?

I think we can get forgetful and lazy, and easily reel off our concerns and desires without first considering the mighty King we are approaching.We are fortunate in that we know we have the golden sceptre already reached out to us every time we approach our King. He saves us from death each time, He extends His favour and love to us always. Yet, do you recall that when you approach Him?
You are invited, not just into the throne room, but into the heart of the King, you have an invitation to sit and feast at His table. Remember that next time you talk to Him. Enjoy your time with the King, relax and enjoy His presence, you can tell Him your wants, of course, but take a lesson from Esther and ask yourself - am I pleasing the King? What can you do for Him today?

Entering the throne room

On the third day Esther put on her royal robes and stood in the inner court of the king’s palace, in front of the king’s quarters, while the king was sitting on his royal throne inside the throne room opposite the entrance to the palace.
Esther 5:1.

Can you imagine how that felt?

You have agreed to come to this vital moment. The past few days have been a distressing, scary, vulnerable preparation for this moment. You have worried, prayed and come to no other conclusion that your fate relies on the goodness and kindness of an immoral, corrupt king. But it is not only your fate that hangs in the balance, but that of those you dearly love as well as many other thousands of lives.

You are aware that it is all now down to whether the sceptre of acceptance is held out towards you. The slight motion of the royal hand determines whether you live or die. Standing in the doorway, certain of what you must do, yet uncertain of your reception. Debating the consequences for the thousandth time. You can’t be more ready than you are now. You have personally prepared; your clothes, your mind, your words, all rehearsed and ready. You have considered how to approach, and how to win your kingly husband's favour - Is there something you’ve forgotten? No. It is time. Time to put your life firstly into the hands of God, then in the hands of this notorious, passionate king.

You do not know whether these are your last moments as you stand there. Unable even to say a tentative goodbye to those you love. You wait for the opportunity to approach, for your brave heart to kick in. Take a deep breath and just do it you tell yourself.

Taking in scene, you know this place, you have been here before, you have previously even been summoned to this place, but now you notice all the details - the intricacy of the designs, the sweet aroma, the heavy presence.
It has been a while since you’ve been here, now the environment seems even more daunting, impressive, majestic. You used to be here more often, but you seem to of fallen out of favour for some reason. For the past month the king hasn’t even wanted to see your face, let alone speak to you or anything else. So, what are you doing here?
Although the halls and passageways are familiar it feels like an intrusion to be there, and he could feel the same - There he is, the powerful, mighty king, sitting on his mighty, majestic throne. Surrounded by splendour in his seat of authority, with people of power around him.

You, a mere wife, a woman, a dispensable part of this palace. Looking in nervously, looking upon the mighty one who can seal your fate with a motion of his hand. The feeling of inferiority increases as you recognise the enormity of your task. The apprehension builds as the reality of this situation reveals itself to your anxious mind. The task now seems ridiculous and pointless. What are you really doing here? Is this going to make any difference? Isn’t it just going to end in death anyway? Shouldn’t you just turn away unseen and unheard?

Even Vashti, the great, beautiful, beloved queen before you was not as bold. She never dared enter the king’s presence uninvited, but she got ‘disposed of' - we all know what that means!

Yet, here I am, the king’s second choice (and not the only one that shares his bed!) I don’t know what is going on in this palace, let alone outside the gates, or even in the king’s mind. On top of that, he hasn’t spoken to me in over a month, or requested my presence, so what on Earth am I doing here?
It is just going to be history repeated. Just another story of the wife that got disposed of.

This offence is surely greater than that of Vashti! She refused to come, but here I am barging in!

How dare I?

What should I do?

Ok, breathe, breathe.

I am contemplating my fate, the fate of the kingdom and my precious people. Yet, this anxiety is not going to help. I know I am taking a risk - a HUGE one, but who else can do it? Yes, it is dangerous, I could lose my life, but the lives of many depend on my actions. It's time to be bold, I and my people are desperate. This panic is going to do no good. God strengthen me. I don't know what you are going to do, but I know what I must.

I have nothing. I am putting myself in a completely vulnerable and humble position. I have prayed, fasted, and so have many others. Now it is time to trust that God has a plan - I have none. I have nothing. I am nothing, and I have nothing to offer the king of the world.

I am entering the throne room as a beggar. Entering the king's presence with all to lose and all to gain.

Well, I can't stay here debating with myself forever. It is now or never. I’ll never know the outcome unless I step forward, empty-handed as I am.
I have done my best. I have prepared everything that I can. I have; prayed, fasted, considered my request. There's nothing else for it. It is time.

God be with me I breathe silently. Deep breath. It's time to enter the king's presence…

Step up

*8*Mordecai also gave him a copy of the written decree issued in Susa for their destruction, that he might show it to Esther and explain it to her and command her to go to the king to beg his favor and plead with him on behalf of her people. *9*And Hathach went and told Esther what Mordecai had said. *10*Then Esther spoke to Hathach and commanded him to go to Mordecai and say, *11*“All the king’s servants and the people of the king’s provinces know that if any man or woman goes to the king inside the inner court without being called, there is but one law—to be put to death, except the one to whom the king holds out the golden scepter so that he may live. But as for me, I have not been called to come in to the king these thirty days.”
*12*And they told Mordecai what Esther had said. *13*Then Mordecai told them to reply to Esther, “Do not think to yourself that in the king’s palace you will escape any more than all the other Jews. *14*For if you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” *15*Then Esther told them to reply to Mordecai, *16*“Go, gather all the Jews to be found in Susa, and hold a fast on my behalf, and do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my young women will also fast as you do. Then I will go to the king, though it is against the law, and if I perish, I perish.” *17*Mordecai then went away and did everything as Esther had ordered him.
Esther 4:8–17.

One thing that strikes me as I read these verses is the intensity and beauty of the relationship between Mordecai and Esther. Eventhough here all they seem to do is command and order each other, underpinning these instructions is a mutual love, respect and honour. We can know this as neither of them become annoyed or offended by what the other says. Plus, in all reality as their conversation was held with a third person interpreting their words, it is likely the conversation was not as brief as recorded here. Esther and Mordecai show a mutual trust and understanding of one another, and both are mutually submissive.They listen to and undertake the commands of one another, isn't that beautiful? They implicitly trust each other, and have great love and respect between them. Esther is even willing to obey Mordecai if it cost her very life. Can you imagine loving someone that much? She becomes prepared to exchange her life for that of Mordecai and the rest of her people.

In the New Testament of the Bible, Jesus says, ‘Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends’ (John 15:13).

Esther is carrying this very mortifying challenge in her life at this point. How much does she love her life versus how much does she love her; nation, friends and family? She carries the weight of responsibility for what she needs to do that may well lead to her death. She, scarily still takes up the cause of the Jews even though the reality is, as she has seen and heard before, she could be brutally murdered.
Incredibly, she does not plan an escape, but takes not the responsibility for her people rather than caring for herself. Then, she, like Jesus, puts the outcome into God’s almighty hands. Jesus went to Gethsemane with his disciples to pray, Esther went into the palace with her ‘young women’, also to pray. Can you imagine the sorrow, the laments, the distress of that time? Can you even begin to understand the devastation and impending doom of your life ending? Those moments between prayers, decision and action must of been fraught with worry, tears, heartache and even preparation for death. Not many of us have to live with that as a reality. Esther did, and just as she was prepared to give her life in the hopes that others may be saved, Jesus did the same. No doubt both were filled with anguish and despair, yet they did not allow their own feelings get in the way of the responsibility they were to take.

Esther stepped up to save a people group, she put aside her own fears and worries, the consequences to herself she outnumbered by the consequences to that of the people she was a part of. Her decision to act for others could have led to her death. Yet, she still made it. She knew it was right. Now, not many of us will have to make decisions that will result in our death in order for others to have life, but don’t we in comparison, find the small things difficult to do? Even when our life is not threatened, aren’t we still scared to stand up for what is right? Aren’t we still scared to help the outcast? Tell people about our faith? Fight for what we know is wrong? Speak out against the trends of the world?

If we are so scared when our life doesn’t depend on it, how would we react if it does?

Esther stepped up to save a people group, Jesus stepped up to save the world, what are you going to step up for?

Step out of the palace

As christians we recognise that we are part of a new kingdom, one that we only experience in part here on Earth. We are, ‘in the world but not of the world’ (paraphrased from John 17:16). This means that although we are physically a part of the Earthly dimension, we know our souls belong not to this place, but to heaven.
We know that we are destined for more than this earthly experience and realise that we don’t really belong here anymore. We become misfits in this world. Esther understood something of what this was like. She was selected to become a part of the Persian palace, and so no longer fit into the comfortable community she had grown up in. The society that she once understood and loved was now removed from her as she became royalty. Her closest friends were no longer her beloved cousin and neighbours, but royal confidants established in palace practices. She had little contact with the outside world, and even less understanding of what was occurring outside her dwelling. She didn’t even know or understand what happened outside her very gates. She was absorbed into the king’s realm, segregated from the rest of the world, removed from relationship and separated from the cares of the community.
The danger for us as people of faith, is that we also become segregated and removed from the society we are a part of. The more we realise we no longer ‘fit’ in the world, the more we recognise we cannot go along with some of the earthly practices, the more we can remove ourselves from community into our christian realm, only mixing with christians, only reading christian books, watching christian films, concerned with christian issues, then we too can come completely segregated from the society we once belonged too. We can, through our passion for Christ and purity remove ourselves from community but then we will no longer see or understand the woes of those around us. We see this happen with Esther;

‘And in every province, wherever the king’s command and his decree reached, there was great mourning among the Jews, with fasting and weeping and lamenting, and many of them lay in sackcloth and ashes. 
When Esther’s young women and her eunuchs came and told her, the queen was deeply distressed. She sent garments to clothe Mordecai, so that he might take off his sackcloth, but he would not accept them. *5*Then Esther called for Hathach, one of the king’s eunuchs, who had been appointed to attend her, and ordered him to go to Mordecai to learn what this was and why it was.’
Esther 4:3–5.

Esther no longer knew what was happening in her own town because she was confined inside the walls of the palace. She had no recognition of the king’s new edict, and she had no idea how to respond. She saw people in turmoil outside the gates, but did not truly understand the problem. The danger, as Esther found, when you become part of a new kingdom, you are set apart from those in your very vicinity. Then you can be so removed from their reality and experience of Earthly life that you have no idea what; troubles, distress or happiness is known among the people next door let alone the rest of the community. So, when we see something distressing, we may wish to help, like Esther did, her heart was moved to respond, to provide assistance, yet it was the wrong help. It was totally inappropriate though her intentions were good. Esther provided clothing for those sentenced to death - what use would that be? Yet, it was not Esther’s fault as she was no longer a part of the society outside the palace, she was an inhabitant of the palace, unaffected and unharmed by the troubles outside.

We can fall into the same trap. We can end up living in a christian bubble, it is easy to do, as human nature is designed to draw us to people like ourselves, so we enjoy relating to and sharing time with other christians. However this can become exclusive when you surround yourself with all things christian. We can become consumed with our ideals of a christian life, and exert all our energies inside the kingdom of God forgetting that the actual King stepped out of his heavenly realm in order to seek those outside the gates. He did not look on with pity or pour out provisions to assist them, He went out the gates, He descended to our level and understood life from our point of view. This King, Jesus, the perfect Son of God, gave up his Godly privileges in order to meet the likes of you and me, the likes of; your neighbours, the ASBO kids, the prostitutes, destitute and lonely, the weird and troubled. Jesus, God, went outside the protection of the palace, maintaining His righteousness yet stepping into a world of trouble, still knowing where He belonged, but willing to put aside His deity, his majesty and power, in order to meet people. In order to show others they matter, they are loved, they are important, and they too can have a home in His palace too.

Now, now that Jesus has rejoined HIs Father in heaven, who has this mandate? That’s right, you and I do. Those that know who Jesus is are told to ‘go and make disciples’. We are to follow in the footsteps of Jesus and make Him known to society around us. We need to step out of our comfortable christian bubble and be part of the community around us, investing time in getting to know others and demonstrating a different way, telling the good news that people don’t have to stay where they are. They are not alone in their strife, and in fact, they have an invitation to the palace, and you are the chosen messenger to give the invite.

It Is time to move outside the palace gates to get a good look at what is really going on. Jesus did.

Be Brave

‘When Mordecai learned all that had been done, Mordecai tore his clothes and put on sackcloth and ashes, and went out into the midst of the city, and he cried out with a loud and bitter cry. *2*He went up to the entrance of the king’s gate, for no one was allowed to enter the king’s gate clothed in sackcloth. *3*And in every province, wherever the king’s command and his decree reached, there was great mourning among the Jews, with fasting and weeping and lamenting, and many of them lay in sackcloth and ashes.’ 
Esther 4:1–3.

Can you imagine the scene? Can you consider the atmosphere of this pervading grief publicly displayed on the streets, in the town and even up to the very gates of the palace?
Can you envisage the sound of the city changed by people wailing in despair?
Can you conceive the smell of the sackcloth and ashes?
How about picturing the sight of many people gathering together displaying their distress?

I don't know about you, but I find it difficult to visualise, although I can capture something of the down-heartened state the citizens must of been in during that time. The scene depicted here on Esther encapsulates the response of the Jews as they become aware of the planned annihilation of their people.

Mordecai, along with many Jews publicly demonstrated his mourning over this edict. As a community, the Jews displayed their individual and corporate grief and distress. They were not ashamed, not only to cry, but even to cry, 'out with a loud and bitter cry'. Such was the extent of their distress that they even went around, ' fasting and weeping and lamenting'. 

I admire the Jews in their natural, overwhelmed, unashamed response to this horrific news. As a British citizen born and bred, it is hard to fully appreciate this response. In this country, we are taught to maintain a 'stiff upper lip' and 'put a brave face on' when we encounter times of great distress and grief. We are encouraged, conditioned, even to not let anyone know how we are really feeling. We keep the thoughts in our heads, and the emotions of our hearts well locked up, so tightly sometimes that even we ourselves can struggle to know how we feel.

I know that growing up, our family experienced some traumatic events, and even from a young age, we learned not to hide how we felt. I do not say that my family is at fault, but that the cultural expectation is 'that happened yesterday, move on'. We are encouraged to, 'sweep things under the carpet'. We do not outwardly lament, cry or express our natural responses in times of tragedy, instead we hold up our heads and keep ploughing on. We maintain the British stiff upper lip at all times, isn't that also your experience of our culture?
I know for me, as a child, I would naturally respond in fear, worry, tears, but soon found that these responses were unacceptable and unnecessary. So, I learnt to hide my emotions, if I had to cry, I would save it for the shower or under a pillow at nighttime, in fact I still do. It is hard to break the habits of a lifetime. My emotions have been hidden for so long, it is sometimes difficult for me to understand how I even feel, it take work for me to figure it out, and my loving husband often knows how I feel before I do! He is patient and kind and has modelled to me being able to express how you feel, and I do try to get there, but it is still difficult. I admire his ability to understand his emotions; state, as well as my own, and that he has freedom and confidence in expressing himself.
He reminds me of these Jews we are reading about in Esther. Unafraid, unashamed of their feelings, able to freely show their emotional state, not worrying about the response of others, but naturally displaying their emotions.

How different our culture is! Often we cannot even tell if someone is happy or sad, because we have learnt to hide it all behind a mask of indifference, behind the standard "I'm ok" response. How different would it be if we felt the permission to release our emotions in front of each other?
If we were all honest with ourselves and those around us, how would that be? Would you have the confidence or even the awareness of your own emotions to display them?

I think we have been encapsulated by the lie that it is a weakness to show how we feel, that it is not acceptable to show our emotions and that others would not like or understand us if we did. Consider the Jews in this, one by one they must of shown their grief, then one by one they realised others felt the same, then before long whole swathes of people were joining in the public mourning, they were sharing their grief, united in distress. What a strength that is. As individuals they were brave enough to show their pain to others, although sharing the pain could not resolve the situation, their was a whole community grieving together, they understood and shared each others pain. If we keep our hurt to ourselves, we have no escape from ir. We have no release from it, and we will never know the love, support and understanding of those around us.

Is it any wonder that there is grave concern in our nation about the state of our Mental Health?

Instead of 'sucking up' our emotions, or 'putting on brave faces', how about sharing our hurt with others? Give yourself permission to feel. You do not need to face the world as if nothing has happened, or remain at home languishing in despair alone. You can go out into the city, you can go to work, school, to the shops, it doesn't matter if others see your emotions pouring out of you, you are allowed to display and share your pain. You never know the people that will understand your distress, who can stand with you and cry alongside you, who can sit with you, fast and pray with you. There may well be a whole community that are with you in your despair. You are not alone in your experiences, or at least you do not have to be.
If you are not sure who to talk to, pray. Look for opportunities to talk to someone you trust, it is ok to seek advice, help, support and professional assistance, don't be afraid to face up to your emotions.
It is not brave to hide your emotions, it is far braver to face them.

Patient Persistence

Now, I know that most of us will think of Haman as the ‘baddie’ and Mordecai as the ‘goodie’ in this story of Esther. However, I don't think we canjust completely write off Haman, for he does show some good qualities.
We can admire and appreciate the qualities people have even when we may not agree with their overall ethos of life. So, in light of this, I shall say - I admire Haman’s patient persistence.

So, to develop this idea further, we need to look at Chapter 3 of Esther, herewe see the revenge plot coming into place for Mordecai’s ’disrespect’ of Haman, and Haman's response:

*7*In the first month, which is the month of Nisan, in the twelfth year of King Ahasuerus, they cast Pur (that is, they cast lots) before Haman day after day; and they cast it month after month till the twelfth month, which is the month of Adar. *8*Then Haman said to King Ahasuerus, “There is a certain people scattered abroad and dispersed among the peoples in all the provinces of your kingdom. Their laws are different from those of every other people, and they do not keep the king’s laws, so that it is not to the king’s profit to tolerate them. *9*If it please the king, let it be decreed that they be destroyed, and I will pay 10,000 talents of silver into the hands of those who have charge of the king’s business, that they may put it into the king’s treasuries.” *10*So the king took his signet ring from his hand and gave it to Haman the Agagite, the son of Hammedatha, the enemy of the Jews. *11*And the king said to Haman, “The money is given to you, the people also, to do with them as it seems good to you.” 
Esther 3:7–11

Do you also notice Haman’s patient persistence?
Haman literally casts lots every single day until the ‘lot’ falls to him to approach the king with his revenge plot, and how long does this go on for? 12 months!!!
12 months of doing the exact same thing, in the exact same way for pretty much a whole year! Surely that shows persistence, restraint and patience. These are characteristics that we do not like to attribute to characters that it is easy to dislike. Yet, there is good in everyone. I mean, God created all people, so in some way, shape or form, they display the character of God whether we like it or not and whether they like it or not. Here, in this chapter, we see something admirable about Haman, even uf he is using this God-given gift for non-godly purposes, the good quality is still there. Haman displays great patience and persistence - Can you imagine doing the same thing, in the same way, everyday, for a year?

Being persistent and patient is hard for most of us, we live in a society which is surrounded by a culture of getting things done, and getting them done now, the attitude is 'I don't want to wait for my meal at a restaurant, I want good-tasting food, right now'. 'I don't want to wait for my problem to be solved, I want a quick-fix'. I bet you come across that, maybe you are even in this quick-fix mentality, well, I am sorry to inform you, that, often, it is better to wait.

Haman had learned the art of patience. He waited, he didn't act until it was right to do so, how many of us rush right in and often make a mistake or make matters worse? sometimes use even rush in when time would actually do a better job of solving the issue than us even needing to say or do anything.

Haman had realised the benefit of being patient, but not being idle. He was also persistent, he knew the goal he wanted to achieve, he knew he had to wait for the right tie yet in the meantime he kept going, kept planning, kept working. I think we can learn some good lessons from Haman, so today I encourage you to consider;

1. Is there an area that I need to grow in persistence? Is there some way that I need to keep going even when I don't want to?
2. Is there something I need to patiently wait for? Am I expecting a quick-fix or a long-term solution?

Be more Mordecai

Last week we looked at the character of Haman who we meet in the book of Esther, a man who seems to be a product of his environment - consumed by his own selfish desires, just like the king, Ahasuerus. There is another man that is involved in life at Susa, and within the palace, this man is known as Mordecai, and as we shall see, he displays different characteristics to Ahasuerus and Haman.

All of these men are surrounded by the opulence available in Susa, where even the palace walls and floor sparkle with riches. Mordecai and Haman have both witnessed how this kingdom works; that selfishness and ruthlessness are an acceptable means to an end, and wealth and authority are treasured above all things.
Both men also work in and around the palace and seem yo have some kind of authority, they have the same work colleagues and the same boss. They are within the same environment, with the same culture encompassing them, and the same people surrounding them - that’s a lot of ‘sameness’! So, why are these two men so different?

They are both surrounded by the same influences yet their desires and character are very different. Haman is concerned with his own affairs, and his desire is to get as much as he can however he can. Mordecai, on the other hand, is concerned with the affairs of others - he has helped bring up Esther, encourages and advises her even as an adult, and he protects the king’s life. Unlike Haman, Mordecai’s desires are not for himself, but for the welfare of others.

Mordecai demonstrates kindness to all, even to people that do not seem to deserve it. He is an upright man in a wonky society. He has not become enticed or corrupted by his environment - how is that possible?
He has maintained a consistency of character and a contentment in his position, whatever that may be. He does not seem to have a lust for money or power. In fact, he is the first person we meet in this book that has shown some loyalty and compassion.
He maintains his loyalty to his kindred, the Jews, yet also displays loyalty to the Persian king, even to the point of saving his life (Esther 2:21-23).
Then, despite the fact that Mordecai has saved the king’s life, he gets no recognition for it. He remains relatively unnoticed and unrecognised. Have you ever felt like that? He went unnoticed even when he’d uncovered an assassination plot! Yet, what was Mordecai’s response? He did not complain, he did not become bitter or disheartened - He simply carried on with life. He went to work as normal, went around the city as normal and remained loyal, as normal.
Is that your response when you’ve been unnoticed or overlooked?
It is so easy for us to become angry, resentful and bitter especially when we put ourselves out and receive nothing in return, yet doesn’t that show a lack of contentment within ourselves? A need for approval from others, a need for recognition? Mordecai displayed an assurance in who he is rather than what he can do, simply by dong nothing different, he remained consistent and contented. Can you imagine the difference if you acted the same in similar circumstances?

Then, as we read on in Esther into chapter 3; we see that Mordecai admits his heritage - he is a Jew. He acknowledges in that admission, that there is one true God, and that He is the one he bows down to.
Then, of course, he comes up again some kind of prejudice at work as his workmates tell their boss Haman about Mordecai’s faith. His faith means there’s a limit to his actions, there’s a manner in which he lives and works that has clearly stood out to them because they’ve mentioned it - they wouldn’t bother if Mordecai did the same as them. They recognised something different about him and weren’t sure how to handle it, so they told their boss. They realised that Mordecai had limitations to his work, they realised he wasn’t going to do what was expected if it meant compromise.
That’s an easy situation for us to be in, a position of prejudice or compromise in our workplaces - what do you do in those situations? Do you go along with everyone else? Do you allow your workmates to question your motives? Do you make deliberate faith-choices even when it gets a bit scary in the workplace for you?
This was Mordecai’s situation. He’d come face to face with compromise, and he put his faith first even though it meant he would come up against some kind of prejudice. It would of been easier in the moment to just go along with what everyone else was doing, but he knew it would go against what he believes and values. It’s easy to dismiss our faith when we come under pressure or feel we have to go against the crowd at work. We often think it is easier to compromise, to prevent rocking the boat, but, as Mordecai realised, there is no point compromising your integrity - you have to live with that for the rest of your life. I know I’ve compromised before - I thought it was expected and the easier way out. However, the feelings of guilt and that I’m not a ‘good enough’ christian have plagued me. Don’t live like that. It’s ok to be more like Mordecai. It’s ok to stand out for what you believe, yes criticism will come, temptation will arise, but what will your response be? Will you compromise your integrity like Haman, or continue to be consistent and content like Mordecai?

Haman had learned to compromise his character, everyone else was doing the same and he was influenced by others and their expectations as well as his lust for greater wealth and power. He went along the majority, and he didn’t become the man who plans an extermination of a whole race overnight, it probably started with something silly like stealing a pen. The thought process can be that everyone does it, so it’s ok, it’s budgetted for, and does anyone really care or notice. Maybe, or maybe not, but what’s the cost to your integrity?

Mordecai, on the other hand, worked hard, worked well, was loyal and relatively unnoticed until he started not to compromise, not to go along with the flow. He decided to stand up, to not allow others expectations to influence his ideals of right or wrong. His faith ruled his decisions, not the culture or other people, or even concern for his own safety or employment.

Are you overwhelmed by the concerns of the crowd?
Does your faith influence your decisions and actions at work?
Is there some way you need to be more like Mordecai?

There is greater freedom in being like Mordecai, Haman’s life choices led to death - where are your choices leading you?

Haman the horrible?

When we read the story of Esther, we often judge Haman quite harshly. After all, he is the enemy of the heroine and he has an unhealthy lust for power and renown, but, isn’t he just a product of his environment?

Haman has grown up and succeeded in a community which is dominated by power and wealth. He lives in the city where there is this incredible show of opulence. The city is a bustling place with people of importance everywhere, and it would be difficult to miss the lavish show of the king’s riches. Even if we just consider the palace - decorated with rich materials, sparkling gemstones and golden goblets what a show of extravagance! Can you imagine living in a place surrounded by such wealth? Being constantly bombarded by sights of the wealth and prosperity? Haman is. He even has access to this palace, so he sees it everyday and he would have been aware of how many of these beautiful, expensive things have been gained - through violent and passionate means.

Haman knows the reputation of king Ahasuerus - a proud, greedy, passionate man whom gets what he wants at any cost. Haman has witnessed it, and heard many stories of the king’s ruthlessness. In this kingdom, ruthless selfishness is permissible and demonstrated by the most famous and revered person of the time. This city of Susa, and the whole region of Persia are ruled by passionate impulse and selfish desires, a me-first society, so is it any wonder that Haman is ruthless in his pursuits too?

Haman has been surrounded by this system where anything goes, so isn’t he merely a product of his environment?

Haman has learned to play a part in this kingdom, he has realised that, to get the best in life, you need to get as close to the king as possible, at any cost. Haman knows that winning the king’s favour will benefit himself and his family. It will mean greater renown, respect and revenue. He knows king Ahasuerus promotes those who align themselves with him, who work to satisfy the king’s passions' and that the king is more interested in results than the manner in which they are achieved. Possessions, riches and authority are the top priority in this kingdom. Haman acknowledges this and unsurprisingly has developed the same mindset - to get what he wants, any methods are acceptable.

When we consider this character of Human, we often see a man whom we hate. Someone we feel disgusted with and whom we see evil in. That may be true, but is it fair for us to judge at all?

I am sure we can all think of people that we dislike, who we don't get along with, whose methods we think are disagreeable or even despicable. Yet, are we even aware of their influences? upbringing? expectations? Like Haman, have they been indoctrinated in a culture or society where certain things are allowable, acceptable or expected?

Do you judge people as unworthy and unacceptable because of their characteristics, personality or choices? Jesus doesn't.

Jesus came to forgive everyone who accepts Him, he even went our to meet the most unacceptable people of his culture - those who were detested by the Jews, those who lived lives of depravity and deceit - He invited them into relationship.

 So, my question to you this week is; are you willing to be like Jesus and accept the unacceptable? to form relationships with those who don't match up to your idea of a friend? Are you willing to share who Jesus is to you to those you think least deserve it? You never know, you might be giving a Haman the chance to redeem his life. You might be giving Saul the chance to transform into Paul. You never know whose life you may influence when you treat people like Jesus does.

strength of submission

- Throughout chapter 2 of Esther, we find out something beautiful about her character that set her apart from the rest of the women around her. We can see this character trait in the way she responds to; her cousin Mordecai, Hegai the eunuch, and to King Ahasuerus. In all of these relationships, Esther is submissive.
- Now, this is not a word many of us like to hear. Yet, this is something that stands out in Esther’s character. Just have a look a the following few verses to see what I mean:
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Esther had not made known her people or kindred, for Mordecai had commanded her not to make it known
Esther 2:10.

she asked for nothing except what Hegai the king’s eunuch, who had charge of the women, advised
Esther 2:15.

Esther obeyed Mordecai just as when she was brought up by him
Esther 2:20.

Do you see what I mean? Esther is submissive to those around her, she clearly has a healthy respect for those in authority. She is obedient, not proud or entitled, but compliant and content. The submission displayed by Esther is definitely seen as a strength, it is what ultimately wins her favour. Esther’s compliance, her acknowledgement that she doesn’t know best, her ability to be led and taught are all beautiful characteristics that far outweigh her physical beauty.

 Yet, who of us would like to be submissive?

None of us, I should imagine, would see submission as a desirable  characteristic for a person, let alone for a woman or a queen!
After all, submission is about giving in to others, giving up your own desires, allowing others authority over your life. We usually consider submission as a weakness - an inability to make up your own mind, make decisions or be too scared to. Submission is to something that we desire, instead we desire independence. We want authority over our own lives, and preferably over others too, we want to have our desires met, and our voices heard sometimes at the expense (not benefit) of others. This is what we consider strength to be - to be seen and heard and noticed.
However,  Esther lives in a place where it is easy to be overlooked, unnoticed and unheard, yet in her simple submission to these circumstances, the fact that she is not screaming or shouting about it, but simply being obedient, that is the very thing that causes her to stand out.

*Submission is a powerful tool.*

- In the days live in we are taught and empowered to be independent, to do our own thing, have it ‘my way’. We are supported to know that our emotions, views and opinions matter, and we are educated that we should be heard. Yet here, in ancient Persia, we see a woman being elevated for exactly the opposite quality. Persia, by what we’ve read so far, doesn’t seem wildly different to world we live in; they also have worldly leaders out for themselves, sin and debauchery is as obvious as it is today, there are liars and selfish people, immigrants, wars, marriage and divorce, just like we do. Amongst all of this life that’s going on, with people out to get what they want, is it any wonder that a beautiful, young woman, who just gets on with life, listening and obeying the instructions of her elders stands out?

Esther honours and respects those in authority by listening and being obedient, therefore she wins their trust. She does not talk behind anyones back, complain or bemoan her situation, she just gets on with it. She is not ashamed to take advice, she follows instructions and she doesn’t seem to get upset or offended by it. Is it any wonder that,  ‘she won grace and favour in his sight’ (v17).
If you want t win favour, have you considered the strength of submission?

Are you favoured?

When we consider the story of Esther, we usually consider it a triumphant story, a story of a heroine, a story of triumph and freedom. Yet here, at the beginning of the book, we hear that Esther is an orphan, she’s been taken in by her cousin as a daughter (he’s clearly much older than her).  We also discover that Mordecai and Esther are Jews historically means that their family in generations past were once exiled to this place. Therefore they are not exactly welcomed or appreciated where they live, hence they are wary of telling others their true heritage.
Do you ever feel like that? Like an outsider? Like you don’t belong? A bit of an underdog? Maybe you are. Maybe your family heritage is questionable, perhaps your upbringing wasn’t conventional, or the opportunities presented to you are few. What we can learn from Esther is that it’s ok to have a bit of a disadvantage, because that doesn’t effect who you are or who you can be.

As we read further on into chapter 2, we see this strange competition to become the queen. Quite a strange affair we may think according to our society today, but not so strange in these times in Persia. Every beautiful young virgin is brought into the king’s living area, beautified and then presented to the king for one night only in order to impress him, they are then put into another area to live the rest of their days unless the king calls upon them again. I can’t even imagine what that would be like - No family or friends around, only the other discarded women of the king that didn’t impress him enough, having to live the whole of the rest of your life in this place. No chance of escape, marriage or family of your own, just living a life ‘on hold’ for the king in case he should want to see you again, but he probably won’t. It’s sad isn’t it, most of us probably see it as quite demoralising. Yet it is into this environment we find Esther entering. She, along with any others, are selected as potential wives for the king.
What a degrading position to be put into as a beautiful young woman, basically prepped and prepared to sleep with a man who most probably will never speak to you again, yet I doubt these women had any choice. It was a nation-wide selection process and these women had been chosen and were brought to live in the confines of the king’s harem.

Then we see Esther, having entered into this situation that seems desperate, immoral and lonely, gaining favour with the man in charge. There is something about Esther that stands out, that rises above those around her and something in her character that establishes her as a favoured one in the harem. How does she do that?
Well, we know from Chapter 2 that she was a Jew - a believer in God. Was it her dependence on God that enabled her to gain favour?
Esther was honoured and appreciated even in this debauched environment, and maybe that is exactly why she won favour because she was someone who had faith in God amongst a whole lot of immorality.

Are you honoured and favoured by those around you no matter the circumstances you are in? Are you one that’s noticed? Are you someone that stands out because of your character?

Dealing with the fallout

After these things, when the anger of King Ahasuerus had abated, he remembered Vashti and what she had done and what had been decreed against her. 
 Esther 2:1

The problem with responding in anger is that you often regret your decision afterwards. The king clearly regrets his, yet he knows there’s no going back. Even if the king had wanted to return to his relationship with Vashti, and was able to overcome the new laws and his own pride, would Vashti have accepted?

Highly-charged emotional reactions, whether made in excitement or anger, effect more than our own lives, they effect relationships and possibly the choices we have in the future. It’s not only that, but everyone touched by our decisions has to bear the consequences and you can never truly go back to how things were before. Once words are spoken they cannot be unsaid and actions taken cannot be undone. That’s what Ahasuerus was finding out. It takes but a moment to break a relationship and it can take years to restore one, maybe even a lifetime.

Even if you are forgiven and never discuss the event again, the pain and memory still exist and trust has been damaged, sadly there’s no rewind button in life where you can just redo the scene again.

In this situation with Ahasuerus and Vashti, things are too far gone to be repaired. She has been banished from his presence, so even if they wanted to, they cannot get back together and work things out. It is sad isn’t it. There are ways to avoid this happening for yourself, ways to avoid the loneliness and the fallout, is there a change you need to make today? Is there a relationship in your life that needs restoration? Is there someone you need to forgive? And if you’re not sure how to get started, pray.

what's your wealth?

So, as we have now come t the end of the book of Ecclesiastes, it’s time to start a new one. This time, it’ll be Esther as suggested by a friend, so this week we will just go through the introductory bit which sets the scene;

Now in the days of Ahasuerus, the Ahasuerus who reigned from India to Ethiopia over 127 provinces, *2*in those days when King Ahasuerus sat on his royal throne in Susa, the citadel, *3*in the third year of his reign he gave a feast for all his officials and servants. The army of Persia and Media and the nobles and governors of the provinces were before him, *4*while he showed the riches of his royal glory and the splendor and pomp of his greatness for many days, 180 days. *5*And when these days were completed, the king gave for all the people present in Susa the citadel, both great and small, a feast lasting for seven days in the court of the garden of the king’s palace. *6*There were white cotton curtains and violet hangings fastened with cords of fine linen and purple to silver rods and marble pillars, and also couches of gold and silver on a mosaic pavement of porphyry, marble, mother-of-pearl, and precious stones. *7*Drinks were served in golden vessels, vessels of different kinds, and the royal wine was lavished according to the bounty of the king. *8*And drinking was according to this edict: “There is no compulsion.” For the king had given orders to all the staff of his palace to do as each man desired. *9*Queen Vashti also gave a feast for the women in the palace that belonged to King Ahasuerus. 
Esther 1:1–9.

So, what do you make of that?!
Basically, the king Ahasuerus, who reigned over 127 areas gave a huge party lasting 180days, that’s almost half a year! For half a year, this king showed off his wealth, possessions, land and household to those he entrusted with power and authority. Can you imagine partying for 6months? Having 6 months with your boss whilst others carry your workload. It sounds kind of ludicrous doesn’t it? just a bit over-the-top?

Then, we can consider the luxury of the place - even the floor is impressive, the stuff people walk over with their dusty feet sparkles with jewels. The whole scene is extravagant. There are coverings, abundance of provisions, expensive fabric, couches of gold and silver, even the cups were made of gold. I mean, I don’t know how much more this king could of done to demonstrate his wealth! It’s lavish, he is clearly a man of authority and power as well as great monetary worth.

So, to what purpose has he put his riches?
In this scene he’s clearly spent it on stuff, impressive possessions, he is showing off what he has, and he takes half a year to do so! He must think a lot of himself, not unreasonably really, due to his position of power.
Yet, to what purpose does he think he has all this? It seems that he is using what he has to; enjoy it, show his greatness and glory in his own worth. He has the idea that all of these things are his and his alone, he shows others what he has, but he doesn’t seem to give anything that he has, his possessions remain his, others may look at them, but he doesn’t seem to be sharing the richness of his kingdom.

I know, in life, many of us will fail to feel an ounce of wealth like this king has, yet we are all wealthy in our own ways. Maybe you are; wise, faithful, patient, studious, creative, genuine, or maybe you do have an overflow of cash. We all have areas of life that we have worth and wealth in, so how are you using them? Are you, like this king, appreciating the good things that you have, which you definitely should, but are you just keeping them to yourself? Do others benefit from the richness you have? it doesn’t have to be in big, flashy ways like this king has done, but if you have a gift of hospitality, do you open your home to others? Do you help others learn if you’re knowledgeable about something? Do you sit and listen with patience to those who need a friend? You don’t need to do all of these things, but you have this wealth for purpose, these God-given gifts are placed into your hands to be used beyond yourself, so how are you doing that?